Blog re-boot!
If you have been following me off and on or before 2011, I was a considerably successful blogger doing travel reviews, holding events, and building a platform that was sponsored by companies that had me try their products, luggage, clothing, restaurants to dine in, hotels, inns, B&B's before they invented Air B&B. Passes to see plays and concerts, all to get honest reviews for them; I was an influencer before influencer was a thing. Then I had the boys! Twins boys in the NICU for months, and after that, I couldn't juggle it all. I remember telling my ex-sister-in-law that I was going to do it all with the babies, that it didn't look too hard to do, and lots of people travel with their kids. I got off the phone with her. I was livid. How dare she think I won't be able to do it all. I wouldn't have postpartum, and I would travel places. That is why I bought a van, so I could carry all the shit babies need.
If I could go back and slap myself and yell wake up, lady. I was so cocky when I was not a mom. I thought this would be a breeze because I had been an auntie and a nanny for so long. We haven't talked in years, but If I still talked to her or ran into her at an airport, I would apologize profusely, and she would see me all disheveled, having misplaced something important and on the cusp of having a full-on anxiety attack.
No matter what, it for sure would be a site. I wouldn't have time to talk or the capability to hold a conversation longer than a few stolen seconds, but I would say, "Hi, I know it has been such a long time, but I was an asshole. I thought that I knew it all when you were trying to talk some sense into me about motherhood. I would also tell her above everything, and I should have listened. I should have taken the wisdom she was handing me and said thank you! But I didn't. I made a ton of mistakes in my life, and that is one of the biggest.
So with that being said, I had to pack up my suitcase and stay home. Once I had the boys, I didn't travel for two and a half years! The Joke is on me. I got a divorce and tried to do it on my own, but that didn't work at all. I got into a relationship for a hot minute and realized that the first relationship you are in after a divorce doesn't work out and that break up is worse than the divorce. It ultimately left me in pieces. ( I will write about all this another time!) So I needed help. With both of my grandparents passing, I didn't feel I needed to stay in Washington, so I got help from my parents, and the boys and I moved into an apartment,
My ex lost his job, child support went out the window, and the Neighbor lady was nuts! ( I will also tell these two stories later) So up to my parent's two-bedroom condo where the boys and I shared a bedroom.
I slept in the bed; the boys slept on the floor. We started counseling.
Big work started in me, and I started writing the blog again. (This blog) but I couldn't get it together. I was a freaking mess. I don't know what I would have done without support from the people that love me.
I promise I will get into all this later as well. I am giving you the cliff notes. 2020 we all know that COVID hit, and we went on lockdown. That wasn't a good situation for the three of us, being locked in a house together and sharing a bedroom with them. It was UGLY!
We moved to Washington again and then a while later back to Vegas. Then I went to Alaska in the fall of 2020 and met this guy I had been talking to for a few years. I flew up there and stayed with friends. They had him come over and have dinner with us, and we met. It went well; we got to know each other a bit better. He was moving to Idaho, which was closer to me than Alaska. When he got down to the lower 48, we saw each other as much as possible. Then we found out we liked each other about nine months later, and he met the boys, my parents, and my closest friends. I met his best friend and became close with his dad and wife. A few months after that, we were all living together. I will get into all this later as well. But let me say quickly that this man rescued me and stepped into a role he didn't need to take on with the boys. He was the shelter the three of us needed from a storm we had been trying to survive all this time alone. Many times I was drowning.
So with that, we moved thousands of miles to the sun, where it can get 117 degrees in the summer, but with this sunshine, we found a life we love, happiness in the boys, and I haven't felt in years here. The good news is the boys are thriving, and we have made good friends. Mr. Right got a career that he loves. We are a family. Our only family is each other; leaning on just us has shown that this is who I want to spend the rest of my life with. A while ago we got engaged a few months ago, and we are low-key planning something but sneaking to a courthouse to do it sounds better and better! ( We will get into all this later as well.)
So now that you are all caught up, this is what we are doing! We are re-launching this blog. I will be writing about daily things, trips, and the life of a mom, just still stumbling around. Hopefully, my older readers who followed me when I was blogging so long ago will join me again and see the growth in me that I have worked hard on. I am far from perfect and have so much still to learn but join me in this crazy busy life while I try to figure it all out. I love when my readers interact with me, so please comment, follow me on the socials, and ask me and suggest anything you think would be a good fit!
Welcome back, babies!
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